I realized today just how selfish as well as lazy I have gotten as I have aged. Today, I was thinking that when I am comfortable about getting into another long-term relationship, I would put it out there that I HATE to cook. Then I thought that if I put that kind of energy out there the good Lord just might take me serious and put me into a relationship where I did not have to cook because there was nothing to cook. As obviously, I do not want to have nothing to eat; I thought better of the idea.

     Then I was thinking that I wish I could have the so called “fiancial security” of a relationship without having to give up the things I like about being single, such as not having to answer to someone else about what I spend (I know married women who have to answer to their husbands for every penny they spend). As well, I like not having to let someone else know where I am at different times. Of course, I am just selfish enough to like having someone who will worry about me at the same time. Stupid, I know but that was the way I was feeling today.